Hello. I'm new to this and hoping to find people that can explain to me what's going on, or just to not treat me like a crazy person.
15 months ago I was an atheist. I was adamant that my rational and logical mind made the existence of God an impossibility. And then one day, God made himself known to me. That's the only way I can explain it. Like, a knowing. In that moment, I just knew him. I'm sorry I don't have better words to explain it, but that's it really. I was minding my own business, and bam. God descended on me.
Since then, I can't unknow what I now know. All of my friends and family are atheists and they think I've had a mental breakdown. It doesn't help that since then I've had multiple occasions of feeling compelled to speak to strangers who, without knowing them, I know their struggles and that they've lost their faith.
I know this sounds crazy. I've been outcast by pretty much everyone I know, but I can't deny that I know God now and I can't deny these messages that clearly mean a lot to the people I've felt I need to talk to.
The last man I spoke to said that he'd heard of "people like me", so I guess I'm just wondering if there's anyone out there with information about what's happening with me. I was raised atheist. I don't have a church I can go to or anyone I can speak to. My children attend a Church of England school but I'm afraid to approach anyone there because it must sound mad.
Anyone with any experience of this?